What made you stop being an addict?

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Read that again ☝️

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

Why do people who aren't trans feel the need to put pronouns next to their name or picture? It seems so cringeworthy to me, to participate in that SJW paradigm of thought, like they are a spineless person who just goes along with the trends.

And I can also talk to them now.

I did it in my administrator's office.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

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I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Shouldn’t there be a short porn platform like TikTok?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

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RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

If my heart stopped beating, would I have enough energy to walk out into the other room 20 ft away before I passed out and died?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

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But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

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This was February 2019.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

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It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

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Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

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I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Just keep trying

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

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I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

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I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

What’s the best way to get over someone you love?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

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So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

What do you think, TikTok is nothing but another porn site? Do you agree or not? Why?

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕